08/21/05
01:46:33 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 58 words English (CA)
Je suis Quebecois!
Je suis Quebecois!
by talerocker at 01:46AM (EDT) on August 21, 2005
Today (well, yesterday, now) we bought an acre and a half in or near Ste Therese de la Gatineau, Quebec.
Some photos are in the photo file-
I'd say more, but I'm tired and I'm still letting it sink it.
(oh no! he's speechless!)
yeah, wow, huh?
....T-R
01:37:46 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 85 words English (CA)
Near the sky- you can almost see the jeep...
Near the Sky
Near the sky- you can almost see the jeep...
by talerocker at 01:37AM (EDT) on August 21, 2005
The jeep is in the far right of the photo- the clearing is just beyond the jeep. the photo of me and the jeep was taken by Cathi as she stood in the clearing. The lake is down the hill and the deed comes with a blurb about us having rights to the lake. We saw frogs and squirrels and chipmunks and pheasants... and lots of yummy flora... Yummmm!
01:31:54 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 55 words English (CA)
The clearing at the top of the hill.
Clearing Where Trailer Will Be
by talerocker at 01:31AM (EDT) on August 21, 2005
Might need a lightning rod... There is an area that was cleared for a campsite at the top of the hill. You might be able to make out a stack of birch logs... Needs a bit of work... I wonder if anybody with goats needs some grazing land?
01:28:09 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 38 words English (CA)
A view of "Our Lake"
Lac Beaulieu, Quebec:
A view of 'our lake'
by talerocker at 01:28AM (EDT) on August 21, 2005
To the left we can stake out our 15 feet of lake front where there is sand. We can put in a path and a dock and.....
01:27:39 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 32 words English (CA)
The Hilltop, the Jeep and I... er, me....
Jeep Jim Property Quebec
by talerocker at 01:27AM (EDT) on August 21, 2005
The larger photo is blurry, but this is almost recognizable. Cathi took this photo on our hilltop at our new propery near Bouchette, Quebec. (Jim)
08/11/05
Permalink 03:55:44 pm, Categories: Announcements [B], 155 words English (CA)
Dreaming out my brains....
Merc Still Retching, dreaming my brains out.
by talerocker at 03:55PM (EDT) on August 11, 2005
Since our friend, 'Goofus' told us I have a spirit walker stone here, I've charged it several times and sent intentions into the megaverse with it. He's sort of yelled at me for not meditating more formally with it. But it told me that I'm working at my own speed and that's cool.
I've had a couple of instances where I'm looking at this rock and thinking, 'crystals or no, this is too weird' and other times, I just kind of bask in happy vibrations and think, hey, whether the stone or the universe is sending me these feelings.... they're cool! Yummmm.
So I will continue to hold the stone and I will continue to sleep with it nearby, even on my chest, and I will continue to feel more and more clear about things. It's working so far.
....Yeah!
.....T-R
08/02/05
06:34:36 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 211 words English (CA)
August, Merc Retch....
August, Merc Retch, but...
by talerocker at 06:34AM (EDT) on August 2, 2005
Dream city-
Dreamed a scout leader had set up an "Ocean Search" trail to follow clues in and around a huge barn, a couple months after a bunch of 'us' (?) had followed similar clues through the same barn.
Remembering a kind of secret access to a cellar beneath part of the barn I tried to get in there and found it blocked, and thought, yeah, that makes sense, somebody could have fallen and gotten hurt, so they fixed that.
Then I realized that everybody else following the clues had stopped, given up trying to find their way into the cellar, and I realized that some of the helper guys who were not following the clues were coming and goiing through different stalls, and one of them whisperingly confirmed that yes, they were showing us the way into the cellar, if we paid attention. But still nobody went.
shrug.
Reality:
Tuesday, 02 August, 2005. 011879 @ AerOrg. 000897 on the Jeep odometer  and 00178 @ jernilling page.
18°C / 64°F @ 5:49 ayem in Arnprior. Some clouds and fog around somewhere...
Oh, the fog was neat last night- seeping up out of the ground, like-
Mark and Else are here from West Virginia, we drove them around a bit.
yum.
.....T-R
07/10/05
04:22:22 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 409 words English (CA)
Reincarnation Dream
Reincarnation Dream
by talerocker at 04:22AM (EDT) on July 10, 2005
Sunday, 10 July, 2005 (Emilie's B'day)
I just dreamed I realized I was reincarnated.
I was a journalism student at a uninversity and I hated jogging. I hated athletes in general but I really hated jogging and joggers.
Then I started remembering a life and the memories were becoming more and more vivid.
I began confiding with a friend (Scott Harris?), telling him that in these weird memories I remembered being his friend.
He became uneasy and told me that a couple of his high school friends had been murdered.
I pursued my memories, became more and more interested in spiritual stuff.
My friend didn't want to talk about his murdered friends, but I told him what I remembered.
I had him come with me to a hypnotist. (I wanted somebody there that I trusted) He protested, but came.
my killer was a team mate who had run ahead, as usual, but veered off the course, got in a stolen car, ran me over, made sure I was dead, delivered the car to friends who took it to a quarry, set it on fire, and then pushed it, with a wrecker, off a slight cliff, and into water. (The quarry was a two sided thing, with one side being much higher than the other...)
I told the hypnotist I couldn't tell who the killer was.
I told my friend that I did know who the killer was. The killer had gone on to finish the race, came in second, was characteristically exhousted, and was never a suspect.
My friend knew who this would have been and we started checking up on him.
We went through a crisis of conscience, should we try to get this person arrested? etc.
We found out that he was enjoying a string of bad luck. He was the captain of an(other) university's cross country racing team, had won various trophies and accolades.
But he was a gambler and he owed bad people a lot of money.
The bad guys beat him senseless, shot him and left him for dead.
While he was dying in the hospiltal, he confessed to killing me while in high school and he named the people who killed my ex girl friend, told the police that they had black mailed him into killing me because they believed I knew too much and they believed he could get away with it.
Weird?
.....Jim
06/22/05
04:35:27 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 56 words English (CA)
Summer Solstice
Summer Solstice
by talerocker at 04:35AM (EDT) on June 22, 2005
Geeze, it got by almost without anybody saying anything.
the boy made almost the same comment.
now I'm hearing the buhp buh buhpp buh buhhhp theme that means the Daleks are near.
Welcome to Summer, (It's been a really short spring, hasn't it? says the boy)
.....T-R
Announcements, imported stuff from dead blogs.... dust bin
06/11/05
03:37:51 pm, Categories: Announcements [B], 105 words English (CA)
Odd Words
Odd words... ((boy is checking his bean))
by talerocker at 03:37PM (EDT) on June 11, 2005 Cousin Jennifer & Cousin Kathy Fleury Pellenz's birfday.
maer raer raer raer... maer raer raer raerrrrrr (the wedding march?)
Domino woke up and looked around to see if it was just the boy trying to sound like a cat singing or something more important. Domino slept near me a couple times in the past couple days.
yawn
Acupunction. (that was a Tjum word)
ree-dick-lee-ous boy word
cathing up (trying to catch up to cathi?)
"Cottonwood!" my mind is curdled with java right now, I think it's time to go shopping.... (dreamcat)
06/01/05
06:37:19 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 160 words English (CA)
Wednesday, 01 June, 2005....
Wednesday, 01 June, 2005
by talerocker at 06:37AM (EDT) on June 1, 2005
Wednesday, 01 June, 2005. 011575 @ AerOrg. 00036 @ Jernilling page.
13°C / 55°F @ 5:30 ish am. too bright out there. I wanna go back to sleep.
Domino has suspended licking his belly, has his right leg, motionless, in the air, poised... lower leg at right angle to floor, upper leg parallel to floor, he's stairing at the back door. moving just enough to show me that he can't do that all day long without collapsing.
I wonder what he's staring at. (sitting on top of the round (cylindrical) kitten hiding station we got for Sasha (Pout)
Now he's back into sleeping mode with right hand / arm hanging out into space.
I have to do some weird recording stuff this morning... if I can keep my eyes open. also need to call Dave tonight.... and put birfdays in the x-10-ded fambly group fingy.
sigh
was this the blog I had to add the paragraph notations to?
shrug
.....T-R
05/26/05
12:55:57 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 56 words English (CA)
Still Crazy... still breathing... still... uhhhh-
STill Crazy, still breathing.... stilll...... uhhh....
by talerocker at 12:55AM (EDT) on May 26, 2005
yeah, I'm still here. Having weird dreams. popping stuff on ell jay. oh no, i'm becoming hip (not.....) ack, so anyway. Muhdagus has been drawn and slightly modified. and I'll pop him in here wiff him dad in the background I fink.....
......T-R
05/12/05
06:22:13 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 262 words English (CA)
Thursday... Brrrrrr (grin, mornings should all feel like this...)
Thursday, Brrrrrr (grin- mornings should feel like this....)
by talerocker at 06:22AM (EDT) on May 12, 2005
Thursday, 12 May, 2005. 011446 @ AerOrg. Rich Fraser's (& Kathy Tatro's) Birthday???
-1°C / +30°F @ 6 AM -5°C Wind Chill.
Woke up at something like 4:45, checked the coffee, nope, had to make it, pushed the 'brew it now' button at 4:56 o'clock. grin
had a heck of a series of dreams and recorded a couple of them in live journal.
scouts last night. they played a version of capture the flag, without the flags. Mark Foley said we didn't have enough time to really set up and get into a good game of capture the flag.
Boy didn't want to be on the hiding team at all, so we switched him to the team to was guarding the 'home'. when it was time to switch he was happy to go into the woods and try to get home free. I guess he wasn't upset when he got tagged in the woods. that's progress. (he understood the rules)
Our friend's son the one with the full blown autism? Mark was telling everybody to let him get home free, but somebody who didn't hear that tagged him about four feet from 'home' the boy was sobbing inconsolably, but his father, who was there with him, said it was fair and I said he deserved a good sport prize, and his dad added, 'only if he stops crying'.
then I conked out on the couch and stayed conked untl 4:45 (with brief little wake ups to check the time and relax and go back to sleep...?)
.....T-R
05/11/05
10:46:49 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 82 words English (CA)
Wednesday... Cub Scouts tonight???
Wednesday? (cub scouts tonight?)
by talerocker at 10:46AM (EDT) on May 11, 2005
Wednesday, 11 May, 2005. 011446 @ AerOrg.
15°C / 58°F @ 5:54 AM Rained over night (Left windows on the van open, oops, it was hot yesterday.)
I am getting somewhere with my live journal. I think.
Not feeling very eloquent... but... kids are hopping down the street outside with their mothers straggling behind, mothers feeling tired?
Yawn, Xeurdan went through the nexus. had to ask for help finding it.... but he went through the nexus.
shrug-
.....T-R
05/10/05
11:50:39 pm, Categories: Announcements [B], 75 words English (CA)
Tuesday. 27°C ?? !!!
Tuesday. 10 May, 27°C !
by talerocker at 11:50PM (EDT) on May 10, 2005
Tuesday, 10 May, 2005. 011443 @ AerOrg. Rasputin's & Uncle Bruce's Birfday. And about 3 people around Clayton Street in Milford...
21°C / 70°F @ 11:45 pm (27°C / 82°F today's high. (too hot) )
IPRC for boy at school. lots of happy faces, "Boy is doing better... don't worry, be happy, we don't have to spend any money on special services for your kid..."
Snarrrrrrr!
does he need to be diagnosed "Aspergers/Behavioural" ?
.....T-R
05/09/05
11:55:01 pm, Categories: Announcements [B], 191 words English (CA)
Monday, - blah.... -duh.... @*0*@ Ahah!
by talerocker at 11:55PM (EDT) on May 9, 2005
Monday, 09 May, 2005. Uncle Ed Conroy's B'day. 011440 @ AerOrg.
+12°C / +54°F @ 11:55 PM. (+8°C @ 5:30 AM.
Pam called early to remind me to pick her & the kids up this morning.
I was tired after a night of busy dreaming, negative and very positive stuff.
DreamCat called in sick. Thinks it was her allergies yesterday... shrug.
I made her breakfast- we had to zoom in different directions. she got the boy, I drove the van to the high school, kind of gulped and left it there. Hoping it didn't get towed away for being in the wrong space. but it looked like kids are parking in the cafeteria spots... shrug.
speech therapist, with revelations. (ahah!)
Piano lessons, then registration for next year's cub scouts.
talked to Trish (Graham's Mom) and Judy (Riley's mom)
We got tools at home hardware (straight spade, metal rake, a whatchacallit, manual tiller thing, and some folding trellis stuff. Yum. left it on the porch.
blah- headache returned. aches returned.
but, we got a call from Pam. Mark's got a conference. I'm picking her and the kids up all week, I think.
shrug.
.....T-R
05/08/05
11:45:27 pm, Categories: Announcements [B], 207 words English (CA)
Sunday, Ouch-
by talerocker at 11:45PM (EDT) on May 8, 2005
Sunday, 08 May, 2005. 011433 @ AerOrg. Mother's Day.
10°C / 50°F @ 11:45 PM. (21°C Earlier)
Head ache, back ache, lungs ached. I went back to sleep on the couch and was feeling sorry for myself. slept uneasily and pained until some time in the afternoon. We did some stuff in the yard, I finished nailing Boy's raised garden frame together and filled it with dirt, he was bored and tried to escape. We needed a few more impliments of destruction (straight spade and metal rake) and went to the store to get those, but the store had closed, maybe minutes before we got there, maybe earlier... I was real late doing my medicine stuff. DreamCat was feeling exploited and burst into tears around dinner time when I was trying to get something done on the computer and she was asking me what I wanted for dinner. 
Um, We did try to make amends by taking Mom and the Boy to DQ for a treat after dinner. (Ice cream gave me nasty hiccups &^ heart burn, some times ya just can't win.... )
I will call Mom later, wish her a happy Mothers' Day.
gasp.
Gonna try to record "What the Bleep" ( a movie ) for Cathi.
.....T-R
05/07/05
11:33:55 pm, Categories: Announcements [B], 165 words English (CA)
Saturday @ the War Museum....
Saturday, 07 May, 2005 Canadian War Museum.
by talerocker at 11:33PM (EDT) on May 7, 2005
Saturday, 07 May, 2005. Warm day.
I went to the Arnprior & District Museum as a volunteer and stayed there from 10 to 2, it was open house.
Then we went, as a family, to the War Museum (which was free today) (And officially opens tomorrow).
The building is kind of disorienting. The message is kind of heavy. We were there a lot longer than we thought we were. it was hot when we got there and kind of chilly when we came out.
A woman talked to us while we were in there, she belongs to a group that is lobbying to have the focus of the museum changed to reflect a desire to resolve future conflicts through non violent measures. I came away feeling the whole museum kind of did that.
feel kind of drained. and everything the boy is doing is getting on my nerves. I'm going to conk out early, I think.
.....T-R
05/06/05
08:49:32 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 128 words English (CA)
Friday, & our friend is sick
by talerocker at 08:49AM (EDT) on May 6, 2005
Friday, 06 May, 2005. 011414 @ AerOrg. Joe Hildreth's Birthday.
+9°C / +48°F @ 7:15. Breight and Sunny. S'posed to be 19°C today.
I guess our friend will be out of work for a month while doctors do tests on him. that doesn't sound good.
Snarina tells me I drive too slow. I drive 40 while her step dad drives 60 (In town where it's posted 40 km per hour everywhere?) oh well. I had guessed right. She tries to hang out with older girls and snarls at younger girls. Why don't kids like her realize that if everybody was like them, they'd be constantly humiliated by the girls they are shining up to?
shrug...
Museum this morning, and tomorrow morning.
sigh. local politix stink. they probably always did.
shrug.
.....T-R
05/06/05
01:51:38 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 146 words English (CA)
Thursday Night INFP List Snarrrrr-
by talerocker at 01:51AM (EDT) on May 6, 2005 (Cousin in Law Joe Hildreth's b'day)
My very un-INFP (probably inTp ? psychologist buddy in Connecticut has said stuff like : )
(somebody said something really stupid. probably joe snarrhead )
"That why it's important not to censore the claptrap that hate groups put out there. The more they are exposed by their own ignorance, the more most people know about them and their agenda- Their 'message' only resonates with those who are already convinced. They really don't 'recruit' anybody who doesn't already have the bug. And the more that 'normal' people see of their nonsense, the more repulsed those normal people are."
So, anyway, I still believe that there are only two kinds of people in this world, Angels in Training, and Angels in Distress. And most of us have one foot in each camp and some of us are centipedes...
.....Jim
05/05/05
06:16:02 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 405 words English (CA)
Thursday, after comatose Wednesday...
by talerocker at 06:16AM (EDT) on May 5, 2005
Thursday, 05 May. 2005. 011411 @ AerOrg. Cousin Tommy's B'day. Somebody in Texas invented a steel cage to survive tornadoes?
+2°C / 36°F @ 5:11 AM. supposed to be sunny for a change? 15°C forecast.
Things are crashing in the kitchen.
Cub Scouts: we went back to the landing and were putting peat moss around the trees we planted last sunday. boy got bored and threw stuff, hit me in the head. I was a little pissed, then realized he couldn't hit the broad side of a barn if he tried (He hit two other scouts with rocks while trying to skip rocks on the river....) but still...
DreamCat spent just about all freakin night trying to fix her computer. the system font was changed into heiroglyphics. she found something somewhere, somebody's grandson had changed her system font and she had finally found the "system restore" button. DreamCat found the right icon and clicked on it and everything was all better. Boy swears up and down he didn't do it. We gotta do something. Yesterday he asked me if it's been three weeks since he told us he didn't have any homework and 'forgot' he had that project to do. Then when mom was getting ready to conk out on the couch, he asked her if he could go on the computer. I think he believes I was serious about not letting him go on her computer for three weeks and right in front of me asks her if he can... doesn't stick his tongue out and say nyaa nyaa... but that's when we found out the computer was "What the????????" messed up. If he thinks he's putting something over on us I think we better stop that right now. expain something so he understands it. or something.
snarrrrrrrrrr
dirty ruck a bruck. New Brunswick's got a lotta floods going on. eep.
blah. I thought I had the flu last night. I was freezing on the couch, where I'm usually hot. slept most of the previous night, most of yesterday, and conked out pretty soon after we got home from scouts, slept until 5:11 ish am when I thought I heard DreamCat's door open and thought I better check to see if she made her morning coffee. no she hadn't, and no, she wasn't up. I got my midnight application of cream stuff by 5:30 and here we are, sort of, I think. snarrrrrrrr.
,,,,, shrug,,,,
Ouch
.....T-R
05/04/05
08:59:05 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 221 words English (CA)
Wednesday? ...I think it's Wednesday-
by talerocker at 08:59AM (EDT) on May 4, 2005
Wednesday, 04 May, 2005. 011403 @ AerOrg. Kent State Day.
+4°:C / +39°F @ 7 Something A.M. DreamCat decided to snooze/cat nap a bit longer than usual, I panicked when I saw the time. She was not panicky.
(Conferences at work for DreamCat... Today is second day.)
Went to Boy's (probably) future school last night. We were more impressed that we thought we would be. but it still feels like some butt brain decided to pull wool over everybody's eyes. grrrrrrr.
Anyway.
Dreams: ghostly pressence touched me on the head last night. I didn't know how to take it. Somebody saying 'hello' or something nasty trying to get a rise outta me. Nasty thing didn't get the rise. But it didn't feel malevolent either. Told him or her to go to the light if it he or she was lost... probably oughtta meditate on that.
Music? I've had music on my mind lately, can't remember exactly which songs.. beside 'memories' from Cats....
Cubs tonight. Museum tomorrow evening.
cough cough. bleh.
Mark A's sick. Pam hopes it's a twenty four hour thing, not something worse.
ack.
Well, at least I finally entered something other than symptom of the day, yesterday... even if it was morbid. DreamCat said she feels like that a lot.
ack. time for a tums.... gasp
.....T-R
05/03/05
03:24:37 am, Categories: Announcements [B], 289 words English (CA)
Tuesday, way too early or way too late
by talerocker at 03:24AM (EDT) on May 3, 2005
I don't want to face your funeral
alone or surrounded by family and friends
-the one person whose love released me
-whose love healed me and gave back life
to me
every time you back out of the driveway
something inside me winces
and I face the possiblity that you won't come back
and I face the immense agony
of wondering if someone will ask me
to identify your body
I won't want to live through that
I don't want you to face my funeral
alone or with anybody there to hold you up
and help you walk
I've imagined you finding me dead and pounding your fists
against the universe, against the 'laws' of life and death
I've imagined demanding from God
an explanation,
was this Your idea of a joke?
I mean, where did this nonsense come from?
and why did You let it happen?
to teach us something?
like what?
like we survive the agony of separation
like we should put all our faith and hope and dreams in Heaven
and forget about this place?
But then You feed me hints
that religion has it wrong
and we're not here to fill their coffers
and we're not here to live by their misunderstanding of Your rules.
but why do You allow so much freakin suffering?
I don't get it.
and why, after we've lost each other and found each other
how many times? and rejoiced...
and whatever....
How could You stand there and let it happen again?
I don't know.
God didn't invent death
maybe God uses death
to convince us that we really
really
don't like it here.
we really
really
want to be somewhere else.
shrug.
.....(me)
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